How to Break Up For the Last Time

How to Break Up For the Last Time

Start by telling yourself this is it. This is the last time you will break up. It will function the way it did at the end of the last marathon you ran when you told yourself, “this is the last mile you will ever have to run in your life.” Then, you were able to give...
Contagious

Contagious

My son was delighted to figure, as we walked, that he was not only five, but five and a half, and like only a person that age can genuinely do, he sang a song about being five and a half. Wearing waterproof boots, he greeted every puddle with enthusiasm. The deeper...
Giving Names to All The Animals

Giving Names to All The Animals

I’ve often thought about the eternal round: of patterns, of cycles, of time and space, of existence as we know it. Like a snake swallowing its tail. Pain kisses the sole of pleasure. Hate and love are the same animal. I’ve built philosophical arguments in...
The Price of Understanding Death

The Price of Understanding Death

“White Tantric Yoga is an ancient group meditative practice that works on clearing out the deepest corridors of the subconscious mind.” –3HO I found myself, for the third time in my life, cloaked in white, sitting shoulder to shoulder with other people in white who...
Darkened by the Divine

Darkened by the Divine

I’m back to treating the open wound on my thigh—the final vestige of unhealed skin. Certainly, there remain unhealed parts under the surface. Scar tissue, swelling, pinching. Deep in my left butt cheek is an abiding pain that I suppose is my sciatic nerve but it’s a...
7 Meditations = 7 Years Worth of Growth

7 Meditations = 7 Years Worth of Growth

1. [The day before white tantric: one 62-minute meditation] SA-TA-NA-MA over and over again for 62 minutes. The chant hijacks my voice about halfway in. My mouth goes on chanting, sounding it out, without my conscious participation. I lift up through the sound to...